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HOW!! TELL ME!! HOW!!!... how am i to think!!.. what am i to do... i don't get you... i don't get any of you... how many freaking side does a human have!!.. i wish all human have one side... or at least the real side of them.. i can't see... really... god what do you want from me... i have nothing.. does making my life like this make you happier? if it does.. i have nothing to say.. please... really... i just need a simple.. happy... lonely life... please... i don't want ask for more... because.. you gave me a life... but i am living a life that is not lonely.. is okay not to be lonely... but i am not happy... how i wish... i didn't see it... if only i didn't see it.. all i have to do is to continue lying to myself... why!! (* **** *** ** ******... * **** *** ** *********.. * ** ***.. * ****.. *** *** ***'* **** ** **** ** ****** **** ****!! *** ***** * ****.. *** *** ***!! *** **** * **** *** :( *** ***... ** *** ****** **** **** ** ** ******** **** ***'* **** ** **** *** ** **** *** ** *** ***** *****~~)