2 more days...

Sick... gosh... hope i don't fall sick... though i always wish to... but not this time... not this year... not ever... these few days i have been really really tired... mentally tired... physically tired... i am not trying to don't think anymore... the more i try not to think... the more i think... and worst i remember more... i guess... i just need to let the memories flow... but is it really painful... don't know what to do... don't know how to feel... what is my emotions right now... i have mixed feeling... i feel sad, happy, angry.... and lots more mixed together... what is this feeling.. what is it... anyone to tell me? or am i to find this out on my own too... i really tired... i need a long long long rest...