Dreaming...

I guess i must really sit down and think my life though... all those that had happen.. all the happy and sad times... realizing that all that i had.. my friends... my family... all start out with a bad memory... those people i know who start out with good memory.. all ended up leaving me... i can't have happy memory all the way?.. so either way i am suppose to start with a bad memory with someone.. and that person will stay as my friend.. longer? i don't get it... don't really know how to write this... don't even know what i said has any meaning... friends... i suddenly can't see them... is like i always have been alone.. == hmm... maybe i think too much... ==