What am i doing...

Kind of mess up.. why today when i wake................................. why? don't know how to type down.. hmm.. though i became happier... i also become more sad at the same time.. i don't get myself anymore... gosh just starting for the year i already so stress.. how am i going to survive the rest of this year.. >~<'' DIE!! don't know what i doing anymore... daddy.. if you could hear me.. could you help me... please.. at least guide me..i am so lost.. ~~~