Sky... ~~

Why are you so high... Why are you so blue at times... so white at times.. so dark at times... Why do you have a bright sun i can't see... can't stare at it... Why do you have so many stars and i can't pluck them... and a moon as bright as light.. ~~ so not reachable.... Cloud so fluffy yet can't reach or feel it.. Why is everything so hard to get... too high to reach... too far to catch... why can't i have any of it... why is that things i want i can't get.. and in the end.. i realize that some things are just with me.. but.. i am greedy.. can't i have more.. i don't even know what i have the truth is... i can't see it anymore.. use to be able.. now... i don't get anything anymore... what is it that i want... what is it that you want from me... why is everything so ~~ messy.... why is my life like this...