Choice..

I don't know what am i walking into... it seems like i only have this path.. all my other path are like block.. if i wait for the rest to open.. i might not have this path that is open.. or worst no more path.. but i am afraid i will regret walking this path.. if only this question was asked a few years back.. i might have the answer.. now i am hesitating... i am afraid... but isn't this what i wanted.. what is it that i want... == everytime i want something.. when i can almost have it i don't want it.. is it cause i am used to living my life of not having.. and yet when the thing come.. is all i wanted.. but i don't want it anymore... why... ~~