Hope ~~

Waiting.. and waiting.. kind of don't know if it is the right choice... wondering what is right what is wrong... stay or to go... stop or to continue... tired.. ~~ why does my head hurt that much.. maybe i am thinking too much.. but i can't don't think.. life is just so hard.. hoping it will be easier.. but it is still hard... and yet i am kind of afraid of the answer... not the answer to my life but the answer to my world... is like i been wanting this for so long.. but now.. i might be having.. but i am afraid of taking.. i don't know how to make myself happy anymore... is like so hard... >< can't i not change my life... i kind of like it the way it is... :\