Who.....

After so many thoughts.. who am i referring to... who am i thinking of.. i have a blank mind.. always thought you were the first and last.. and yet you are fading.. while i don't get it.. thought i love you... maybe because the time that i waited.. the chances that passes by.. i got tired.. am i right? *i don't know the answer yet i am asking myself* i should move one and find someone better.. but i am afraid.. and though you are fading.. i still feel you around.. like you are watching me.. time flies.. doesn't it?