What to do... TT someone tell me..

WHY IS THE SO MANY HIM IN MY LIFE!!! now please could you stay with one.. and only one.. or best thing forget him and don't like anyone else le.. make life easier.. maybe you will be happier.. wishing that there is someone out there who like me as much as i like him.. but i know it will only happen in my dreams.. if not my world has change into fairytale (fake).. now i know i am not worth this.. knowing that gods wants me to be alone.. (single) in exchange he gave me a lot of good friends.. i guess i should be thankful.. but selfishly wanting to know how being love feels like.. TT