Need..

If i were to go back in time... i actually don't want to change anything.. though i know there are a lot of things i regret... a lot of things i wish i could change.. but if i have this chance i won't change anything... i will just go back and see how happy i was before.. i know you might wonder why i don't want to change a thing... because if i change it.. i won't be able to learn from it... everything i know will change... is like saying to have to suffer first before you can have real happiness... so if i change then i will have a happy past... but does that means i have a horrible future? so either way i am not going to take that risk... i am just going to thank people who made me laugh... being able to make me laugh at bad times.. means you are a special person.. a person full of wonders.. but either way whether you are special a not... i am not going like anyone... well not yet.. i don't want to feel that pain again... maybe i am to be single forever? but i just want to be happy.. so please stop torturing me can you? haven't really forget that person... i have been trying very hard.. but i guess you can only say time.. will heal... :) BE HAPPY!! and believe?