Goldfish..

Always heard that they have short memories.. some say 3 seconds some say 5 seconds while the scientist says they do remember.. their memories can be up to 3 months long... i find them amazing... sometimes.. it feels i am going just crumble down... break down or something.. i have nothing to say about how bad or how good is this life.. i can only think that it's fair... or at least hope that it is fair.. what is the best way to give myself a break from this world? i can't find any... homework and projects... are just going to flood in soon.. how long can i keep this up...  i can see that everyone has their problems.. but why they can handle their problems so well.. and i am here complaining about it... the more i wish i can be stronger... the more i feel like crying... haven't cried since don't know when.. but i know it's a long time... kind of wondering if i will be able to cry.. or my tears don't even bother about me... that the tears also think that it is not even worth crying... kind of wish i were a goldfish if their memories was 3 seconds long..