World~~

Time seem to pass very fast and slow at times.. but either way is may tomorrow.. and that 5 months have pass.. whether this world is going to end at 2012 we will found out soon... though knowing that it won't.. still thinking that what will the world become if it did.. what will humans do... will that save one another.. or they will use one another just to survive... knowing that humans are usually selfish.. and it doesn't really pays for you to be kind.. as people just take it for granted... but who knows.. i might also be the selfish one at this type of situation... first of all cause we aren't thinking.. we panic too much to even think.. so i guess.. we will just have to wait and see what happen this year.. :S

Starlights...

Shining brightly.. feeling the warmth of it.. twinkle goes the stars... like many eyes winking at you... hoping to catch your eyes.. and that only people who would stop and look at the world will see it.. people who are rushing.. rushing pass.. rushing to earn money... rushing to learn more... rushing to take revenge? they are the once who won't be able to take a look at how pretty the sky is... i guess the heart is worth breaking? it because that everytime i get hurt... thinking that the world is like ending... when i take a look at it.. i realize that this beautiful world is always there with me... and that i didn't have the time to see it.. now that i see it.. i want everyone to be able to see it as well.. so please slow down and take a good look at things around you... take a look at how your family and friends love you... that a look at the mirror see how much you have grown.. and that everyone is growing.. your parents are growing older and not younger.. treasure them.. love them... and reminder to all mother's day is coming.. make something, buy something or do something for the lovely mother you have.. the one that care for you since young... 14 more days to go.. so start planning now!! well actually is 13.. cause today is ending soon. XD

Miracle..

There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe...

Believe... because all can be taken.. but not your faith, hope, believes.. and finally miracles will happen.. just wait and see.. :)

Need..

If i were to go back in time... i actually don't want to change anything.. though i know there are a lot of things i regret... a lot of things i wish i could change.. but if i have this chance i won't change anything... i will just go back and see how happy i was before.. i know you might wonder why i don't want to change a thing... because if i change it.. i won't be able to learn from it... everything i know will change... is like saying to have to suffer first before you can have real happiness... so if i change then i will have a happy past... but does that means i have a horrible future? so either way i am not going to take that risk... i am just going to thank people who made me laugh... being able to make me laugh at bad times.. means you are a special person.. a person full of wonders.. but either way whether you are special a not... i am not going like anyone... well not yet.. i don't want to feel that pain again... maybe i am to be single forever? but i just want to be happy.. so please stop torturing me can you? haven't really forget that person... i have been trying very hard.. but i guess you can only say time.. will heal... :) BE HAPPY!! and believe?

Wants...

It seems in the month of April i have nothing much to write... recently seen a show name Prince of Egypt.. didn't really know about this show till i was searching randomly on the web.. this show interest me cause i want to know what happen to the slaves there.. i end up knowing that the world is cruel.. people are selfish but either way they pray to god.. the blame god.. after so long the god finally found a way to help them.. this story teach me that everything can be taken away from me.. but not faith... it made me cry when they are singing... at the same time i don't think the prince was evil.. though he took people as slaves and torture them... but he did to follow his father's footstep and to complete the world he see.. but he ends up losing everything.. i don't to pity him or to be angry at him... is just the method he use is wrong.. this just proves that no one is evil... but they use the wrong method.. or did it cause they believe in what they believe.. well.. don't really think is wrong believing in what you believe... the 'prince' (other one) didn't care much till he found of he was a slave but got saved... it just shows if you are willing to change everyone will be willing to forgive.. so now.. i have to learn to forgive... which i did but i don't think i forgive with all my heart.. FORGIVE AND FORGET!! then you will be able to SMILE!!! :)

Dreams and Wonders

I want to do a lot of things.. suddenly.. i am guessing the way for me to stop thinking about unimportant things.. i have to keep myself busy... very busy.... i can't even have a little break... if not all will come to me again... now i plan to buy 28 note books... well.. at least i think i only need 28 of them... hope it goes well.. cause well... a lot things never went well in my life... i always have this sudden feeling that i am more then who i think i am.. or i can do this.. or i can do better... but then sometimes... when my hopes are up so high... it just comes down.. very fast.. and then it will seem that i am wasting my time... now i am guess... must make use of the hope when it is up high... before it comes down.. so i am kind of racing against time.. maybe i will be able to complete it.. or maybe not... but what matters is that i did my best and i enjoy it.. so well... SMILE :)

STM!! >~<""

Oops i forgotten about my blog... x.x well can also say that nothing much happen this few days that is why i never thought of my blog... well nothing much maybe a lie.. but what else can i do... i always have been lying to make me smile... well not lying to others... just myself... truth is i miss you... but do you even notice... i love you... but do you even care... i need you... but you won't even look at me.. i am guessing that i am not important... well as least that is what i see.. i miss... i love.. i need.. i want.. i hate.. i can see that i am the one who give myself all the problem... just forget it and continue walking..

Tired...

I guess is really a bad thing to know too much.. knowing that you are not able to help... is just so torturing... asking me to just stand there and wait is so hard... but sometimes is best standing at the side.. sometimes you wish to help but you can't... sometimes you don't wish to be in it but somehow you are drag into the problem.. suddenly kind of interested in bibles... wonder where did all this start from... who is the first person who told this story... if said that Adam and Eve was the first human on earth... then why do scientist say that human evolve from monkey? why, why and why?? >~<'' anyone has the answer??  

What to do?? >~<''

Have no idea what am i thinking or what i want.. don't really know what to post these few days.. and not only i don't know what to post.. the blog also won't let me post.. who to blame... my computer? the internet? this blog? or myself? the connection? what or who to blame.. no one.. like in real life who to blame for everything? still have to get on with life... and continue tomorrow.. the time won't wait for you.. the day or night won't wait for you.. no one will wait for you.. look ahead and GOOD LUCK!! :)

Story with no ending..

I guess i know why some author don't write stories with ending... is not because they don't want to... is because if they write a happy ending it is like too good to be true... in reality happy ending are not really that happy.. is more like a normal ending... nothing special... if the author write a sad ending... then the readers will hate the ending no matter what who don't love happy ending... okay maybe a few people.. that is the problem here... no everyone will like the story.... so when the author write a story without an ending is hoping that everyone can imagine their own... their very own special ending.. everyone have different wishes... everyone have different thinkings... so a story without ending is usually the one with the best ending... so enjoy your own story... which is your life... tomorrow is always a brand new chapter. :)

I hate myself..

Why is it that the past keeps on haunting me... what is it that i must learn from.. or what is it that i have to know.. why are you doing this to me... who are you to me... how important are you to me... i don't get it... if things go on like this i will go crazy... is not easy to forget something... but it is harder when you already forget something but you remember it somehow... is like can't it just be forgotten... why is it like that... you knew i can't have so what for remember... you knew it was in the past so what for remember... you knew that you can't rewind the time so what for remember... you knew it will never be the same so what for remember... and though i never regret loving you... but i regret remembering you... every memories just hurts me.. so what if it is already very long.. i did forget.. or at least i tired to... but you just remind me of it... and now i have to start all over again.. and i am tired of do this over and over again...

Wish..

I am greedy i know.. but i can't help it.. i want.. i want everyone to smile... i want.. i want everyone to be happy.. i want... i want everyone to be healthy.. i want... i want to have a lot of friends... true friends.. i want.. i want lots of money to help this world... i want... i want to have a peaceful life... i want... i want everyone to be problems free... i want... i want... everything i also want.. but not everything i can have.. i guess that is what you call fair.. or share.. because if god is our parents... then everyone is my siblings... and that they always said you must share.. give... but why.. why some people's life... is just so good... and some is just that bad.. share... then why is everyone one not equal... there is always a bias somewhere... i want it to be fair.. we are all humans afterall...

Sadness..

Why.. why is it that other people's problem always seems a lot worst then mine.. yet why can't i help any of them.. i feel so useless here... i want to help... at the same time i don't want to help... why am i like this... don't know what i am thinking this two days.. i just don't get it... how i wish.. i can suffer everyone's problem for them.. problems are already hard enough for one person to take it.. so why do so many people have problems.. if i could i would suffer of them.. then maybe this world you can see more smiles... i mean real smile..

Goldfish..

Always heard that they have short memories.. some say 3 seconds some say 5 seconds while the scientist says they do remember.. their memories can be up to 3 months long... i find them amazing... sometimes.. it feels i am going just crumble down... break down or something.. i have nothing to say about how bad or how good is this life.. i can only think that it's fair... or at least hope that it is fair.. what is the best way to give myself a break from this world? i can't find any... homework and projects... are just going to flood in soon.. how long can i keep this up...  i can see that everyone has their problems.. but why they can handle their problems so well.. and i am here complaining about it... the more i wish i can be stronger... the more i feel like crying... haven't cried since don't know when.. but i know it's a long time... kind of wondering if i will be able to cry.. or my tears don't even bother about me... that the tears also think that it is not even worth crying... kind of wish i were a goldfish if their memories was 3 seconds long..

Wonderland...

A world with with a bright sun smiling to me every morning... birds singing for the world.. clouds fluffy as usual with shape of anything it wants to be.. flowers blooming smiling back at the sun.. grass soft and green for all i can see... the sea transparent blue shining back at me.. a mountain so big and white wonder what could be there.. a small lake with fishes.... a pond with lily... the warm sand under my feet.. i love my wonderland... i see deers, rabbits, swans, ducks, dolphins, whale... who knows what is out there waiting... at night.. the moon brighten the night... the star twinkle like eye winking at you... and i just lie down and see whether i am lucky enough to see a shooting star pass by..