Wake up already!!.. kay? :'(

You know it.. you should have already know it.. but why.. you knew didn't you? why... why.. why are you doing this to yourself... there won't be any result... there won't.. so why do you bother.. you of all people should know how tiring this is.. you should.. but why.. why are you still torturing yourself.. i want it to end.. and either you end it.. or i end it.. which has no differences actually.. we both are the same person.. and that either way.. i have to move on.. crying won't help.. getting mad won't help.. shouting won't help.. nothing will help actually... except.. if i continue.. continue walking... and walking.. till.. i finally finish it...

Your Answer...

I understand.. i finally understand.. i think if i die you also won't care... == you will only care about how clean your house is.. ah.. whatever lah.. anyway your son is more precious then me.. fine then.. spoil him then.. whatever he become is your fault.. whatever he become don't blame that i never say anything.. is all your fault.. i scold him about what he done wrong.. you scold me saying that if i never say anything he won't be like that.. then let him be.. whatever he freaking turn in to is NON OF MY BUSINESS!! you don't even care.. why should i.. ==

A saying??

I came across this sentence long time ago.. but i didn't think much of it until recently.. (There Is No Such Thing As Coincident, The Is Only Necessity...) is this true? if i change everything that i thought was coincident into necessity.. it just sounds and looks very wrong in a way.. or maybe there is a meaning under it.. if i ever figure it out.. maybe i will post it here.. well that is if anyone were even reading these in the first place...

So long..

It has been so long seen i last wrote anything here... now that i realize the world is changing.. into a more and more different thoughts and feeling kind.. meaning.. that things are not like it use to be.. last time people can smile for no reason.. they can laugh for no reason.. they can even do whatever they can to help a person and not wanting anything in return... i can't see this people anymore.. they are getting lesser and lesser... or is that everyone is still the same.. but they are afraid to show.. to this world they say.. you can never trust anyone.. not even your family members... i was thinking won't it be very hard.. to me trusting is kind of important... if you don't trust me then you can just leave.. because there is no point in keeping a friendship/relationship if 'suspect' is in the way.. i hoping that my friends will really trust me.. because.. even if i lie.. i have my reason.. and that lie wasn't meant to hurt you in the first place...

I wonder...

Kind of wonder.. that is there anyone out there who come back often to view my blog... wonder is there anyone out there who like my blog.... i been wondering.. because i kind of starting to lose motivation to write on blog... at first is a place for me to share my thoughts and feeling.. but then after that.. i was thinking i am sharing.. but to whom... please respond if there is.. cause i am kind of lost here.. thanks for the help.. i appreciate it a lot...

Maybe... hmm..

I guess my dreamland is better then reality.. i tried very hard to no stay in my dreamland.. i can't bare to leave it.. this world is just full of mystery.. and kind of scary.. but then there is also a lot of this i want to find out.. like are there other human outside the galaxy? where did animals come from? why are humans so smart? who created maths? why is the sky light blue but the galaxy is dark blue/black? why  does the star look white from the earth but up close they are red? where did all the different language come from? there is so much question i want to ask.. but there is not alot of answers for them..maybe next time when you all create something remember the create a answers for that question that others might ask.. XD

Horoscope :)

Though i been reading a lot about it.. but i wish to write it.. to help others with.. and it just all come to.. maybe i don't know enough.. maybe i need to research more.. maybe what i write it's not true.. but i still find it cool.. people might not know.. but i know that each person horoscope is different.. as in they act differently somewhere.. because you maybe born on that day of the horoscope, but you still need to see the year you are born in, the blood type you are, what horoscope are the people around you.. these all make who you are.. there is 12 horoscope, the is 12 zodiac, there is 4 blood type, there are 365 birthday.. so now now can you see how special you are? this is call individual!! so though someone might be similar to you.. but they can never be the same as you.. planning to take notes of it and maybe write it out.. (or how about this.. so do you think i should do it? anyone to answer that question??)