What if..

What if i miss you.. what if i was thinking of you.. what if i wish you were here.. what if the skies here were full of star.. what if it's forever full moon.. what if i was giving up.. what if i am stilling loving you.. what if i suddenly disappear.. what if you were here.. what if i need you.. what if!! what... if... i really don't know anymore.. you are near but yet so far.. so far until i can't see you.. what to do.. tired.. pray for a better tomorrow.. not sure am i even gonna be given that chance.. if i was going to die.. i wish i had a lot of money at that time.. hope to plan something unforgettable at least before everything end.. and i start losing who i am finding.. where am i? who am i? why am i me? what am i suppose to do? when can i find myself? how can i do that?