In the end..

I didn't have time to post the story up.. i didn't finish it.. more like i didn't bother.. haiz.. everything is going to pile up soon.. i wish teacher would give us the project already.. >~<'' he better give it now if not i won't have the mood to do it le!!.. not only no mood also no time... AHHHHHH!!!! :S *faints*  everything getting harder and harder.. :(

Beginning...

Maybe since my blog is kind of dead... i don't know what to share.. or what is positive.. is to complicated to think about it.. so i think i will use it to write a story a make up one see how things goes... i am hoping i will have many idea on how to write the story.. hope you all can imagine the story the way that i did.. or at least get what i am writing...

I don't know how..

I really really hate you at times.. i guess i am a type of person that doesn't want to be forgotten.. but it seems i am easily forgotten.. was it something i done? or did i not do enough.. i used to say so long you are happy nothing matters.... but now i don't know already.. no matter what is out there waiting for me i have to face it on my own right? i get it now.. it so clear now.. pray for the future then..

Erm...

I always wonder if being kind is a good thing.. and is forgiving the right thing..? When people say they forgive you, please always remember this.. they haven't forgotten.. and they never will. believe it or not.. when both of you have an argument again.. he/she will bring it up again... this prove that though they forgive but they never forget... humans are a funny creature aren't they? some are hurt easily.. some just seems so full of confidence.. some are always smiling.. some or always hiding.. either way all humans are the same.. or should i say some..? they hiding things to themselves.. cry alone.. what you see are not the real them.. though some cry infront of others.. because they know that, that person is able to solve it.. and those they we think friends are not able to solve we hide it in us.. right?

Unfinish...

There is so many thing to do.. or it should be i want to do.. but nothing seems to be complete... is either half way done or i have given up on it.. i have never actually seen something finish.. even if i did finish it.. it just doesn't turn out the way i hope it will be.. there is always a missing feeling from it.. maybe i am the one who has the missing feeling not the things i do.. but either way things can't be done.. this is just tiring.. but what to do this is life.. and i have to live on with it.. =3=

Either or.. neither nor??

Clear my mind...  hmm.. how?? i don't know why everytime i empty my mind.. i feel scare.. i just feel like someone is behind me.. or maybe there is... is just i am never calm to feel it.. now clearing my mind is kind of a scary thing.. but i have to.. in order to learn.. to learn something.. and so i can understand why.. i guess it is normal being afraid.. but i have to overcome it either way.. if not.. i can't learn.. and i know it's scary.. but what to do i want to learn... @@

Back ;)

Finally back in Singapore.. XD don't really know what am i thinking.. or what the dreams these past few days is about.. hmm.. i can only say i have a sudden interest in tarot... actually i had always been interested.. but now i am kind of motivated to really study it.. :D well hope everything goes well... kind of stuck with the part.. of should i use poker cards or tarot cards... >~<'''