I don't know how..

I really really hate you at times.. i guess i am a type of person that doesn't want to be forgotten.. but it seems i am easily forgotten.. was it something i done? or did i not do enough.. i used to say so long you are happy nothing matters.... but now i don't know already.. no matter what is out there waiting for me i have to face it on my own right? i get it now.. it so clear now.. pray for the future then..