Erm...

I always wonder if being kind is a good thing.. and is forgiving the right thing..? When people say they forgive you, please always remember this.. they haven't forgotten.. and they never will. believe it or not.. when both of you have an argument again.. he/she will bring it up again... this prove that though they forgive but they never forget... humans are a funny creature aren't they? some are hurt easily.. some just seems so full of confidence.. some are always smiling.. some or always hiding.. either way all humans are the same.. or should i say some..? they hiding things to themselves.. cry alone.. what you see are not the real them.. though some cry infront of others.. because they know that, that person is able to solve it.. and those they we think friends are not able to solve we hide it in us.. right?

Unfinish...

There is so many thing to do.. or it should be i want to do.. but nothing seems to be complete... is either half way done or i have given up on it.. i have never actually seen something finish.. even if i did finish it.. it just doesn't turn out the way i hope it will be.. there is always a missing feeling from it.. maybe i am the one who has the missing feeling not the things i do.. but either way things can't be done.. this is just tiring.. but what to do this is life.. and i have to live on with it.. =3=

Either or.. neither nor??

Clear my mind...  hmm.. how?? i don't know why everytime i empty my mind.. i feel scare.. i just feel like someone is behind me.. or maybe there is... is just i am never calm to feel it.. now clearing my mind is kind of a scary thing.. but i have to.. in order to learn.. to learn something.. and so i can understand why.. i guess it is normal being afraid.. but i have to overcome it either way.. if not.. i can't learn.. and i know it's scary.. but what to do i want to learn... @@

Back ;)

Finally back in Singapore.. XD don't really know what am i thinking.. or what the dreams these past few days is about.. hmm.. i can only say i have a sudden interest in tarot... actually i had always been interested.. but now i am kind of motivated to really study it.. :D well hope everything goes well... kind of stuck with the part.. of should i use poker cards or tarot cards... >~<'''