I lost..

Wish that you are happy.. I can't give you the happiness you are looking for.. So long you are happy i am too :).. If only heartache was a physical pain.. then i won't suffer that much.. There will be a way for it to be heal.. But the pain you give me is mental pain.. I can't cure it and i am going crazy.. I miss you.. I love you.. I want you.. But i won't have you.. I won't take you.. I don't own you.. Stay happy.. forever and ever. ;)

I wish.. If only..

Why.. why.. why must the ending be like this.. I want it to change.. But i guess if you are happy i will be happy for you.. Wish you all the best. :) I have to move on.. I can't keep on waiting for something that will never come true.. Wishing.. Hoping.. But it did come true.. well at least it did in my dreams.. I am happy enough.. Hope you will be happy too.. Things around me has started to lose their colours.. But thanks to my friends at least is black and white and not total darkness.. They gave me LIGHT.. But i used to think only you can give me all the colour i need to shine my life.. But thanks to chemistry i know all the colour are just part of light. :D I smile for my friends.. I am happy for you.. I guess you didn't know but you are the first person i love.. <3

I can't let go.. TT

Seeing you is the best thing of my life. Though this is very suffering for me.. I know i can't have you.. All i can do is think.. But everytime i think of you it hurts.. The scar that that is left was not hurting anymore.. But these few days.. The pain came back.. I can't do anything.. I thank all my friends who have help me though in one way or another.. Now i have to face the fact i can't let go.. I tried and i can't.. The only choice i have left is to wait for the feeling to fade away.. Which it might take years.. But i don't mind.. Because I Love You...