I lost..

Wish that you are happy.. I can't give you the happiness you are looking for.. So long you are happy i am too :).. If only heartache was a physical pain.. then i won't suffer that much.. There will be a way for it to be heal.. But the pain you give me is mental pain.. I can't cure it and i am going crazy.. I miss you.. I love you.. I want you.. But i won't have you.. I won't take you.. I don't own you.. Stay happy.. forever and ever. ;)

I wish.. If only..

Why.. why.. why must the ending be like this.. I want it to change.. But i guess if you are happy i will be happy for you.. Wish you all the best. :) I have to move on.. I can't keep on waiting for something that will never come true.. Wishing.. Hoping.. But it did come true.. well at least it did in my dreams.. I am happy enough.. Hope you will be happy too.. Things around me has started to lose their colours.. But thanks to my friends at least is black and white and not total darkness.. They gave me LIGHT.. But i used to think only you can give me all the colour i need to shine my life.. But thanks to chemistry i know all the colour are just part of light. :D I smile for my friends.. I am happy for you.. I guess you didn't know but you are the first person i love.. <3

I can't let go.. TT

Seeing you is the best thing of my life. Though this is very suffering for me.. I know i can't have you.. All i can do is think.. But everytime i think of you it hurts.. The scar that that is left was not hurting anymore.. But these few days.. The pain came back.. I can't do anything.. I thank all my friends who have help me though in one way or another.. Now i have to face the fact i can't let go.. I tried and i can't.. The only choice i have left is to wait for the feeling to fade away.. Which it might take years.. But i don't mind.. Because I Love You...

Beginning of a new start.

Today, i thought a lot.. Reading horoscope books now.. Some might think horoscope books are just useless things.. Some might think that is not true.. But i do believe in them that is what makes me, me. I think the books are like mind reader.. The books know most of the things about me.. Reading this so that it might be able to help me a little in life.. Even though i believe in horoscope but i do not rely on it too much.. Things around us are for us to find out, for us to study, for us to enjoy, BUT not for us to destroy.. The nature is so beautiful.. The tress are green, skies are blue, sea are shiny blue, flowers are colourful.. Life is like so perfect.. I hope that even if we (human) did destroy, we should know the consequences, and start by replanting the tree we destroy.. Cleaning the sea we polluted.. And earth might live longer.. Human then can survive.. Living peacefully with everything around them.. Though i know i have no rights of saying this because i am also one of them who cause this.. (as i use paper..) But i really hope to see a beautiful green island, a clear blue sky, a clean shiny sea. The wish that my hope will come true is to see a real willow tree for myself.. Sitting under it and reading a horoscope book.. I just love willow trees.. (don't know why i suddenly thought of nature when talking about horoscope.. a bit no link XD)

Starting of a new hope.

Today, i am going to try if this works.. putting all my thoughts here. Wishes that i have for a long time.. Hoping that miracle might happen. Everyone has troubles not only me and they might even worst cases compare to mine.. Sorry.. if i am being childish.. but this is who i am.. i can't change the fact.. i can only change the future.. hoping that tomorrow will be a better.. this is my way of lying to myself to move on.. it does work sometimes.. Okay let's try it! (HOPE THAT TOMORROW IS A BETTER DAY! JIA YOU! YOU CAN DO IT!!) All of you can do it to! hope is there to help at least that is what i think so. ^^